It's hard for me to share this photo, but I also recognize the value of sharing my story because I want women to know that we are in this together.
Back in 2012, I was preparing for a major photoshoot for a company that I aspired to work for full-time. In order to ensure I was in tip-top-shape, I hired a trainer. I worked with this person for 4 months, eating only "clean" foods and dedicating hours in the gym. On the outside, I looked super fit, happy and alive. The truth is, the restrictive diet and excessive exercise left me feeling tired, empty and alone. I feared going out to restaurants because I wouldn't be able to order anything. I found myself countless times standing in the pantry, spoon deep in the peanut butter jar, hoping to find comfort. I had dedicated so much time trying to achieve the "perfect" body, when in reality, that so called perfect body left me feeling emptier than ever.
This was one of the most pivotal moments in my life. It's why I felt called to start this brand, RetiFit.
It is my mission to help women avoid getting sucked into the societal trap of feeling "not good enough" because their body doesn't look like the ones on the magazine covers. Because I know how lonely and empty that can feel, and I want you to know you're not alone. It is my mission that women understand that moving their body is about MORE than having a six pack, because let me be frank, it's not all it's cracked up to be.
I want exercise to be something women LOVE, not use as punishment. I want women to move their bodies because it makes them feel empowered, strong and alive. I want magazines to start featuring women on the cover who tell us WHY they move, and WHAT it does for them outside the gym. All those classes you take, all those programs you dedicate time to, I want you to start celebrating ALL the things they allow you to do outside those walls.
I hope you'll share this message with a friend who may benefit from reading this.